Where are you? You were my best friend…I could be with you anytime anywhere and anyhow!
I am the one who is known to have fallen asleep standing in a crowded BEST bus holding on to the pole in the bus and had to be woken up by the conductor to collect money for the ticket!
I am the one who slept for 20 hours in the 22 hours journey in the train, with RD at the bottom seat (we had side upper and lower) wondering if his wife was alive or not!
I am the one who fell asleep midst discussions of an exciting holiday even as things had started to get heated up!
I am the one who needs proper 9 hours of sleep to function like a human being in the morning. I was always a cranky human who would snap any everyone if I did not get my requisite amount of sleep!
I am the one who can fall asleep anywhere, anytime and anyhow and in any position. Whether I am lying down, sitting, standing..it really does not matter! I can sleep..
But for the past 1.5 years, I have been more awake than sleeping in the night. Reason?
The poor kid gets up 4 to 5 times in the night complaining of itches and hurts and no matter how much cream we apply, she is scratching away to glory and crying and whimpering in sleep 😦
I am awake most nights either applying cream or just trying to soothe her skin with my cold hands.
We have tried everything under the sun for her. Steroids, cold baths, wraps, putting moisturizers 3 times a day, seeing specialists and what not! But to be honest, I see no improvement at all. Steroidal creams seem to work for some days, but as soon as we stop applying them, the itch is back. We have tried all sorts of things and it all boils down to the fact that there is a history of asthma in the family and she just has childhood eczema.
R spends her time in the car, helping R2 rub the itchy parts of her body and soothing her telling her ‘Its okay, R2, try and forget the itch’. Or she tries to distract her with her songs or shows her the beautiful sights outside. Its so heartbreaking because when RD and I refuse to itch her skin (we say we will apply cream), R2 runs to her sister and says ‘R, R, can you please chori (scratch) me?’. R gives me this pleading look to let her do it for her sister because she cant see her sister in pain 😦 It breaks me heart, really!
I am hoping that this ‘childhood’ eczema goes away soon. I havent sleep in ages..and I am waiting for the day when R2 can sleep through the night too! I am worried for her, to be honest. She has started to resist afternoon naps (which I can understand, she is growing up!) but she does not get enough sleep through the night. I hope this does not affect her development in any way 😦
I had enough. I feel frustrated. I feel helpless. I feel awful. I just hope this itching leaves R2 alone and she can enjoy one of my favorite things to do. SLEEP!