There is Appam and there is Aaaapppam…the later is the white dosa like thing which the Malayalis eat with stew…which is a delicacy in itself…
But my heart is set on the Appam..or appe as its known as more popularly. There is something about appam which makes it special. My amma makes it on the devasham days (Shraadh) of my grandparents. And on special occasions like Karthigai festival or something.
I must confess, I wasnt a big fan as such. I used to like only the ones which my mom made..(Call me a snob!) Appam has to be soft…unfortunately, whenever I have eaten it outside, its been too hard, too sweet, too difficult to bite…
The ones which my Mom makes are soft, perfectly sweetened with a combination of banana and jaggery and when eaten hot can melt in the mouth. And when eaten cold, are nice to chew 🙂
When I got married, I think the only patram my mom didnt give me was an Appam maker. That too because I swore to her that I will NEVER make them. Too much hard work, eh?
But, now as I am growing older and become a mother to two kids, I really want to have an Appam naizhi. You know the one with holes in it, which are just perfect to create the round lovely balls of yumminess!
My eyes are on the one which my Paati has had for ages..for almost 70 years I think. Made of bronze and solid looking, blackened with years of use and it must have created a million appams…but the history it carries definitely makes it so special. It has seen my mom grow older, it has seen my grandparents struggle through independence and poverty. It has seen my grandmother make small ones with less ghee since they couldnt afford too much of it. It has seen my mamas grow up and get married. It has seen my cousins fight about who would eat the last appam which it took out! It has seen my mom’s family grow older along with it. It has seen three generations…
And I want it! Unfortunately, I am not getting a chance to get it. Everytime someone comes or goes to Calcutta, there is something or the other happens and I cant lay my hands on it!
But I am a patient person. I am sure, I will get it some day. And I will create a lifetime of memories with it.
Till then, I continue to dream on 🙂