R: Sa Re Ga Ma Pa Ga Ni Sa
RM : Pa GA illa R, its Pa Dha, I told her, as R and I were sitting and pretending to sing
So she starts again...Pa GHA Ni Sa
R, I say exasperated..its Pa DHA..dha, as in Dha
okie Amma, and starts again ‘Sa Re Ga Ma Pa GHA Ni Sa’
I give up. and then I realise it really doesnt matter. At 4, she can afford to make her own song.
Afterall, I, at 31, am still singing my version of the Song called motherhood eh?
Parenthood is for a lifetime..honestly I have realised that..whether your child is 2, 22, 33, 111..a parent is a parent is a parent…
My Amma worries about me the same way I worry about R..and she is as incompetent in singing as I am..but for the song of life called motherhood, she is my rockstar..and well, the brat did tell me that ‘I am her rockstar’ eh? So definitely the song for life na 🙂
When did this singing start?
Was it, when I first heard R’s scream as she came out? THE song of my life?
or was it, when I heard her whimper for the first time as she was brought to me 6 hours after delivery for want of milk? Was
that MY song for life?
or wait, may be it was the first time, I heard her gurgle in laughter? That definitely WAS my song for life eh?
When I think back, do I say the first time I heard her say ‘Amma’ in her singsong kiddish voice when she turned 10 months…was that the song for life for me?
Or was it when she sang her first rhyme without my help..will that be my song for life..or was it when we said our first prayer together? or wait, may be its the first song we sang together…? (which was tu hai aasma mein)
Motherhood, I must admit, has not been easy for me. I am just not a maternal person. Whether it was the delivery or the post delivery care or even now, whether its making her sit and write her alphabets, it doesnt come easy to me.
Patience is a virtue I lack, and patience is what makes 99% of a parent!
But I have realised, that the best way to tackle motherhood is to treat is as a song…
But me, well, I am just blessed with a brat who knows what keys to play with me.
does it mean, our relation is perfect? no, its far from that. We play our songs of tantrums and fights, we also play our songs of cuddles and kisses..
We have our special songs of hugs and we definitely have our songs of major screaming sessions..but they are our special songs..songs in which sometimes even the father gets left out…
While most mothers say motherhood is the most blessed thing that happened to them, I would admit, for me its a challenge..challenge in every step..
It was then scary to have a tiny being so dependent on you for everything..from nourishment to cleanliness..and it is scary now because the tiny being now has her opinions..and this I am sure is going to continue at the rate at which she is 4 going on 14 🙂
But we sure plan to keep the singing going on and on….
Yesterday morning I told her, R sing a song for me and she said
tu hai aasma mein, teri yeh zamin hai
tu jo hai to sabkuch hai, nah koi kami hai
tu hi dil hai, tu bhi jaan bhi hai
tu khushi hai, aarasa bhi hai
aur aap meri amma hai 🙂
Definitely signing up for the song for life..yipeeeeeee
This is an entry for Womensweb’s contest (http://www.womensweb.in/articles/motherhood-a-song-for-life-contest/)…Phew I made it! I havent missed a single contest yet 🙂