I feel that often in a lot of things you know. Not being cool. Being a bit..well, backward or something.
Earlier, I used to feel very un-cool compared to my cousins in Calcutta and Bombay. They would be attending multiple classes, swimming, singing, playing an instrument, and what not. I remember telling my mother often that if I lived in a big city, I would be so much cooler. Amma would smile her usual Amma smile and say, its fine, there is no comparison between your cousins and you. Each of you is Unique! (See, thats why she is Amma!)
I felt they had better presentation skills in terms of writing and submitting projects, they had better pronunciations, better talking abilities etc etc …I studied in the Gujarat board school which had a vernacular medium of education. I always felt I wasnt cool enough as they were.
And then it is the question of English Music. I confess that I dont know any great English song bands (USA based or Europe based) I cant recognise any songs if you played, I have no clue what the classics are and I am clueless if you quote me an English song! And this is the child of a father who knows all the English music classics, at least of his times!
When people quote English songs ‘oh you should hear this one’ ‘oh thats such a classic’ wow, that band from my times is awesome! and stuff, I just nod my head and pretend to understand. In reality, I am clueless..now a days, I go home and google the band and read a bit about them. I feel so so uncool then. One day when I was younger, I asked Appa why he didnt initiate us into Western music and Appa didnt have an answer to that.
Anyways, the point being, I am not cool enough to discuss English music with people.
There are loads of other stuff that I am uncool about but this one really makes me feel a bit sad. and the saddest part is, I dont seem to have an ear for all this. I mean, if RD makes me hear a song and tells me something about it, I dont feel the urge to listen to it again. Its like okay so they played music and said some un-understandable words, but then what?
Its not like a Hindi song which I can recollect or can actually enjoy or listen again!
Guess, I am uncool eh?
The uncool series will continue in the future!